Hey Friends and Family!
I just wanted to let everyone know that we have got a new house! How exciting is that! We move in May 15th and have the lease till June 2008. It is a super lovely house on a really beautiful street lined with big old trees! So cool. The house was built in 1909 and is being renovated inside. We love it...super beautiful. In fact, it is a very pretty house...a girly one.
My roomate situation is changing though. Christina is moving home for the summer and we needed two people to replace her. So, Danita Rushton and Danae Giesbrecht are moving on in with Juanita, Mickey, and I. Should be a goooooood time! I'll keep you posted about this place and there may be pictures soon. Keep your eyes peeled!
Bethany
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Sunday, April 1, 2007
Settling in.
So I've been living in 'toba for almost three months now. Crazy eh! It feels so strange to me still. I'm still getting my bearings as an independent lady and it's taking me a while to become comfortable in this new stage of my life.
Some days I would say that living on your own is over-rated! It's expensive and it is often lonely. There are days that I miss my family a whole lot and wish I was back home with them. But I made this decision to be out here and I am learning to cope with that decision. It's all part of growing up I suppose. One of those necessary steps to becoming an adult. But it is harder than you'd think.
Yet, there are also days I really love it. I enjoy the idea that I'm my own person completely seperate from my parents. I make decisions all on my own and take control of different challenges. Facing things on my own isn't something I've done very well in my life, but now that I have to...it's much different. I love being with my friends all the time not worrying about waking up my parents or having to explain to them why I was out late. It's freeing and it's empowering to live on your own..and that is great!
Life on your own can be stressful and lonely but I think it's something that is ultimately good for a person. I am slowly getting settled in...and I believe it will take me a while to become comfortable with this whole new lifestyle. But it will come. I will grow up. And, God help me, I will learn to cook for myself and enjoy it! Honestly though, I'm just glad I have patient room-mates who have helped me transition into life on my own.
(Am I honestly old enough to be writing a blog about living on my own? sacry!)
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
to Seek.
I am a member of the oh so popular Facebook. Not only am I a member but I've also joined some groups on this friend networking establishment. I joined a couple for sentimental reasons and I joined some because I thought they were lame and wanted to let them know...subtly. One of these groups that I joined is called 'Christian boys are hotter because...". This site is kinda overwhelmingly frustrating.
In this group someone had posted a conversation that personal. He stated that he is frustrated with the search for that perfect female. He keeps dating and being let down by God. He almost fears that there is no one out there for him because of the luck he's had.
Now, I have to admit. I have been frustrated at God because I didn't have a boyfriend. Yes, I've even been impatient about finding that 'one man'. I have struggled with this a lot in my life-that's for sure. Until lately I have had a discouraging life. For the past couple of years I have realised so many things about my life and God's work in it that it seems, that to worry about my love life, is pointlessly lame. God has it in his hands...why worry right.
So, I just had to reply to this guys sad life. I encouraged him to seek other things beyond himself. Then I read some other replies, which said basically the same thing. This one lady wrote about seeking first God's kingdom and all these things will be added unto you.
It encouraged me to do some seeking. With not being in school it has been kinda rough going with the whole learning and growing part. So, I'm going to seek for a while now. Take my mind off of certain other distractions. hmmm. I'm excited.
Bethany
In this group someone had posted a conversation that personal. He stated that he is frustrated with the search for that perfect female. He keeps dating and being let down by God. He almost fears that there is no one out there for him because of the luck he's had.
Now, I have to admit. I have been frustrated at God because I didn't have a boyfriend. Yes, I've even been impatient about finding that 'one man'. I have struggled with this a lot in my life-that's for sure. Until lately I have had a discouraging life. For the past couple of years I have realised so many things about my life and God's work in it that it seems, that to worry about my love life, is pointlessly lame. God has it in his hands...why worry right.
So, I just had to reply to this guys sad life. I encouraged him to seek other things beyond himself. Then I read some other replies, which said basically the same thing. This one lady wrote about seeking first God's kingdom and all these things will be added unto you.
It encouraged me to do some seeking. With not being in school it has been kinda rough going with the whole learning and growing part. So, I'm going to seek for a while now. Take my mind off of certain other distractions. hmmm. I'm excited.
Bethany
Friday, February 2, 2007
Bilbo and I
Roads go ever on,
Over rock and under tree,
By caves where never sun has shone,
By streams that never find the sea;
Over snow by winter sown,
And through the merry flowers of June,
Over grass and over stone,
And under mountains in the moon.
-The Hobbit-J. R. R. Tolkien
My adventures aren't quite like the ones that mr. Baggins had on his first journey away from Bag End, but I feel an odd connection to this song he sang when he first laid eyes on his home at his journey's end.
Roads go ever on, he says, and they do. Life can be dreadful from time to time, but the roads go ever on. Life is a journey and God's will is not found at the end of it, but within the journey itself. But oh, will it feel good to finally arrive home after a journey's end. After life's struggles and messiness, a wash of peace will overcome when you first lay eyes on that blessed place. No more dragons to slay, barrels to be shoved in, giant spiders to scare off, friends to save, people to impress, or unknown paths in scary forests. No more wargs and goblins chasing after you, kings imprisoning you, or trolls to out-smart. Though each one of these trials has ultimately morphed you into someone much different then who you were at the beginning, some days you just want to say, "Okay! Enough. Please let me sit back, take this all in, and figure out who I have become. Please, just stop for now so that I can get my bearings."
As I have been growing up rather rapidly in these past few years I find myself becoming weary. I'm tired of figuring myself out. I'm tired of fighting dragons and out-smarting trolls. I'm especially sick of people convicting me without knowing who I am and what I need (but that's for another blog). I'm tired of trying to keep up with the latestpr awesomest this or that. I just wish that I could settle within my skin, love and be proud of myself, so that I can stop focussing on me. But I always get in the way. My fears, apprenhensions, feelings of inadequacy and so on take hold so that the general public has a misconstrued idea of who Bethany really is. But at the same time I'm tired of trying to prove myself and show others who I am, or can be.
And my road goes ever on. And thank the Lord for that. Under mountains in the moon or through the merry flowers of June, my road goes ever on. Others say, "I understand" but I don't believe them because the struggle feels so deeply mine...and only mine. How can they actually understand my struggles, apprehensions, and so on. They cannot fully understand. They may know the feelings and have walked up similar mountains in the moon...but they cannot truly know. I think that this is why I still hold on to God. He has been through every single spec of life with me. walked every mountain with me...within me. He truly does understand, and that is something to hold on to, is it not? How lonely life would be without another in the world to walk with you and know every inch of your journey. The great understander. Jehovah-Shammah.
In the beginnings of my journey I thought that I was missing this type of companionship because I didn't have a boyfriend beside me. And I have struggled with this a lot in my life, feeling like God had left me alone on this earth to experience life in solitude. But the funny thing is that he was there all along. He never told me where to go, who to befriend, or what I'm supposed to strive for. He was simply there with me as I made my decisions. He did set up shepherds to help me along the way, people and passages to help when me when I was confused and needed it but he never said, "if you stray but a little bit, your journey's over and I'm outta here." No matter which rock or tree I go over or under, He's there with me and I change...how could you not.
Life is exhuasting when full of goblins, dragons, and trolls specially designed for you. And there are days and days when there is little left in you that wants to work through these trials. But the cool thing, or maybe the daunting thing, is that the road goes ever on whether you want to face things or not...whether you wake up or not. The road goes ever on. Learning, growing, changing, living. The road goes ever on. Jehovah-Rohi will take your hand, see into your eyes, know your inmost being and press on with you till you reach your journeys end.
Roads go ever on
Under cloud and under star,
Yet feet that wandering have gone,
Turn at last to home afar.
Eyes that fire and sword have seen
And horror in the halls of stone
Look at last on meadows green
And trees and hills they long have known.
(The Hobbit)
-Bethany
Over rock and under tree,
By caves where never sun has shone,
By streams that never find the sea;
Over snow by winter sown,
And through the merry flowers of June,
Over grass and over stone,
And under mountains in the moon.
-The Hobbit-J. R. R. Tolkien
My adventures aren't quite like the ones that mr. Baggins had on his first journey away from Bag End, but I feel an odd connection to this song he sang when he first laid eyes on his home at his journey's end.
Roads go ever on, he says, and they do. Life can be dreadful from time to time, but the roads go ever on. Life is a journey and God's will is not found at the end of it, but within the journey itself. But oh, will it feel good to finally arrive home after a journey's end. After life's struggles and messiness, a wash of peace will overcome when you first lay eyes on that blessed place. No more dragons to slay, barrels to be shoved in, giant spiders to scare off, friends to save, people to impress, or unknown paths in scary forests. No more wargs and goblins chasing after you, kings imprisoning you, or trolls to out-smart. Though each one of these trials has ultimately morphed you into someone much different then who you were at the beginning, some days you just want to say, "Okay! Enough. Please let me sit back, take this all in, and figure out who I have become. Please, just stop for now so that I can get my bearings."
As I have been growing up rather rapidly in these past few years I find myself becoming weary. I'm tired of figuring myself out. I'm tired of fighting dragons and out-smarting trolls. I'm especially sick of people convicting me without knowing who I am and what I need (but that's for another blog). I'm tired of trying to keep up with the latestpr awesomest this or that. I just wish that I could settle within my skin, love and be proud of myself, so that I can stop focussing on me. But I always get in the way. My fears, apprenhensions, feelings of inadequacy and so on take hold so that the general public has a misconstrued idea of who Bethany really is. But at the same time I'm tired of trying to prove myself and show others who I am, or can be.
And my road goes ever on. And thank the Lord for that. Under mountains in the moon or through the merry flowers of June, my road goes ever on. Others say, "I understand" but I don't believe them because the struggle feels so deeply mine...and only mine. How can they actually understand my struggles, apprehensions, and so on. They cannot fully understand. They may know the feelings and have walked up similar mountains in the moon...but they cannot truly know. I think that this is why I still hold on to God. He has been through every single spec of life with me. walked every mountain with me...within me. He truly does understand, and that is something to hold on to, is it not? How lonely life would be without another in the world to walk with you and know every inch of your journey. The great understander. Jehovah-Shammah.
In the beginnings of my journey I thought that I was missing this type of companionship because I didn't have a boyfriend beside me. And I have struggled with this a lot in my life, feeling like God had left me alone on this earth to experience life in solitude. But the funny thing is that he was there all along. He never told me where to go, who to befriend, or what I'm supposed to strive for. He was simply there with me as I made my decisions. He did set up shepherds to help me along the way, people and passages to help when me when I was confused and needed it but he never said, "if you stray but a little bit, your journey's over and I'm outta here." No matter which rock or tree I go over or under, He's there with me and I change...how could you not.
Life is exhuasting when full of goblins, dragons, and trolls specially designed for you. And there are days and days when there is little left in you that wants to work through these trials. But the cool thing, or maybe the daunting thing, is that the road goes ever on whether you want to face things or not...whether you wake up or not. The road goes ever on. Learning, growing, changing, living. The road goes ever on. Jehovah-Rohi will take your hand, see into your eyes, know your inmost being and press on with you till you reach your journeys end.
Roads go ever on
Under cloud and under star,
Yet feet that wandering have gone,
Turn at last to home afar.
Eyes that fire and sword have seen
And horror in the halls of stone
Look at last on meadows green
And trees and hills they long have known.
(The Hobbit)
-Bethany
Sunday, January 7, 2007
my 2006 list
okay, so I'm copying my friend Emily's last blog because I really enjoyed reading it and wondered what my list would look like...so I made a list of 2006 words and phrases. I think that it's mostly in order...but a lot aren't. Just so you know. Enjoy my year...oh, and it's illustrated! haha.
Hearts
Hearts
LOST
encouragement
Laura
Style experimenting
Theories of Personality...clashing of personalities.
cramped legs
Lectio Divina
encouragement
Laura
Style experimenting
Theories of Personality...clashing of personalities.
cramped legs
Lectio Divina
Hymn love
Journalling
Stressful presentations
New Friends
Kindred Spirit
Saracastic rants
Piano
hurt friends
Senior Sneak
Scrambling
March break
Ballet
Journalling
Stressful presentations
New Friends
Kindred Spirit
Saracastic rants
Piano
hurt friends
Senior Sneak
Scrambling
March break
Ballet
Curling
psychiatrist=hurt feelings
Pride and Prejudice
Hair cuts
Cheaps
Girl's Night
The Ringer
Grow a Boyfriend
Dance Dance Rev
psychiatrist=hurt feelings
Pride and Prejudice
Hair cuts
Cheaps
Girl's Night
The Ringer
Grow a Boyfriend
Dance Dance Rev
Boy drama
Spinach Dip
Graduation
Bachelor of Arts
Tears
Separation
Nano
job hunting
Telemarketing
Dashboard Confessional
Big Beads and Grandma earings
Letters from Manitoba
FBC Youth
Leadership frustrations
Life Purpose Confusion
Little Brothers
Camping trips
sisters first boyfriend
East Coast Trip
Phone Calls from friends
Cd Mixes
College and Careers
Bowling
Job hunt
Crushes
Bangs
JFO dance
Photo Lab Assistant
Canon Convention
S3 IS envy
James Bond
Christmas cards
Sudden loss and broken hearts
Black and White
Plane Ticket
Christmas presents
Miracle Chopper 2000
birthday cards
22
forgetful friends
walks with youth
no snow
3G4E Reunions
Boys make girls nuts
Spaceballs
chicken scratch
Future worries
surprises
pirates 2
dropping ball
AHHH.
Welcome 007
Spinach Dip
Graduation
Bachelor of Arts
Tears
Separation
Nano
job hunting
Telemarketing
Dashboard Confessional
Big Beads and Grandma earings
Letters from Manitoba
FBC Youth
Leadership frustrations
Life Purpose Confusion
Little Brothers
Camping trips
sisters first boyfriend
East Coast Trip
Love Nova Scotia
Zach's WeddingPhone Calls from friends
Cd Mixes
College and Careers
Bowling
Job hunt
Crushes
Bangs
JFO dance
Photo Lab Assistant
Canon Convention
S3 IS envy
James Bond
Christmas cards
Sudden loss and broken hearts
Black and White
Plane Ticket
Christmas presents
Miracle Chopper 2000
birthday cards
22
forgetful friends
walks with youth
no snow
3G4E Reunions
Boys make girls nuts
Spaceballs
chicken scratch
Future worries
surprises
pirates 2
dropping ball
AHHH.
Welcome 007
Monday, January 1, 2007
The New Year
So here we are in 2007. I'm really excited about this year and I'm really looking forward to it. There are a lot of changes coming my way and a lot of challenges. Oooooh, here we go here we go! I just have this feeling that it's going to be a really cool year. I'm not totally positive why or how but I have a good feeling about it. I'm moving not to far into this new year and that's a huge change for me. Just one of those things. My resolution is to do my physio at least 5 times a week I think. Or I think I would love to watch all of the Bond movies throughout this year. It is the year of 007 is it not?! I wish the best for all of you in this the James Bond year. Good luck and happy blogging. Ooh the anticipation of a new year daunting and wonderful all at the same time.
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